climb session with cousins

I went climbing with my cousins today. It was fun, I learned new things from them. My cousin told me not to use my arms too much. She said that I need to use alot of my toes and legs. So, she taught me over and over and over and over again. Her german fiance said that by the way I climb he can see that Im lazy....hahaha...I am. So, my cousin said the same thing "hish,malasnyaa dia ni...try lagi sampai dapat..tak dapat tak boleh move on to the next section". Well, it worked,my hand does not hurt that much. She told me how to shift weights on my legs so that I can reach the holds that are far. It was hard! seriously! I was using easy routes and I could not trust my legs. I kept slipping, I dont know if the rubber on the rented shoes was wearing off or maybe I was just bad at it.

I am glad she was there to drill me, or else my hands would always be pumped. Im not able to move my hands at all after climbing,but after this, I think it would be alright. I would try to do the over hang, but, only after awhile. Over hangs are hard!!!



I want to do soooooooo many things in my life...that I do not know where to start!!! aaaah!

music and me

I woke up really late and now, I am listening to Nirvana, they are the first album that I bought. I was nine and the cashier at the store looked at me and looked at the cassette, he said "Nirvana?..oh ok..". At that time, I think boybands,girlbands and pop culture was all over the music industry,but ofcourse, there was alternative,but, I think kids my age prefer listening to pop rather than alternative. Simply because alternative is full of angst and the lyrics are rather depressing. Maybe, that is why I grew up as a depressed teenager,listening to RHCP,Rage against the machine, not to forget eminem (its not alternative but it is still angsty).

I remember that when I was at the age of 11, when hiphop started building up. I bought eminem. My mom heard the music and she threw away my cd. She said that it was full of vulgar words, it was actually quite true,but, I was angry at her because I bought it with my pocket money. My cousin bought me another one, because , I was sad that it was thrown. That was when I started to be rebellious with my family. When we sent my sister to Cambridge, we stayed at my second cousin's house in London for afew weeks. I bought Mase, a hiphop artist who hasnt been in the music business in years,but, he has quite a selection of music. I played it on my walkman, I was at the double decker bus upstairs, and it felt so good. The breeze, the music, it was at night,so, I felt quite free.

From there, I started to do the same thing with my ipod until today. Time stops and if I were to wait for a bus with the music on, I do not really feel time moving that slow. I think with music, you can judge people, you can see how their perception in life are. It is meant to be loved.

Adrenaline

Besides traveling and going backpacking,the things I'd REEEAALLLY want to do in life includes things that has adrenaline rushes. Not just roller coaster rides,I want to keep it real. I want to live with the nature,for me, I think it is how you meet and get to know mother nature. Here is the list :

a.Climb All Malaysian Rocks (I do not think I am into competitions,but I want to go out and experience new rocks)
b.Sky Diving
c.Water Rafting
d. Scuba Diving
e. Surfing
f.Bungee Jumping

Gosh, I need money for all these things. It is time for me to save!! SAVE!!!!
Its all about pushing it to the limit. Ones I have done these things, Id be satisfied, its more about doing it for myself. What I have been wanting to do. I remember going to New Zealand...wanting to go Bungee Jump,it was either too expensive or my parents just could not see me jumping,but until today, I want to do it. Until today, I still regret that I did not go bungee jump. So,now, I want to keep the money, and have all the adrenaline that I want to have.

Presentation

I had my presentation, I havent been sleeping in days,it is 1.30am and I still can't sleep! The presentation was not as bad as I expected. I was nervous, so, I was basically trying to practice, it was all smooth when I was talking to myself aloud,but, when I started presenting, I was so nervous, I could hear my voice shaking. Nonetheless, it was all good, even though I could have done better,but, hey! its not the final year, I still have plenty of presentations and assignments to go! Not sleeping is part of it!!! I WANT SLEEEEP!!!! seriously!!!!!

i am not suppose to blog

I have presentation tomorrow, and I have to say that I AM NOT READY at all!! To say that i will fail is an understatement. Alright, maybe I am exaggerating. My head has been really slow and I have tons of assignments,but, yet again, I still feel like going climbing. Gosh, I am addicted to it!!! Anything that is addictive is bad says my friend,but, it makes me happy. For the first time I do not care if someone says I suck at it. I do not even care if people like the climbers of seri kembangan say bad things about me,due to some incident. Although, I really really want my cousins who are also climbers climb together. I think it would be really cool having "The Said Climbing team" hahaha..... I am not sure though if my sister can stand my cousins, one of them can be quite selfish.

the grass is much greener on the other side?...really?...i dont think so

Grass,is it really greener on the other side? What I really want to know is that, if I move, would I be happier? I am not unhappy now, I just miss having a person around to cuddle with. I do appreciate my alone time, I do like being single,but, the emptiness would come ones in awhile and there you go again,*boom*... the past.. and the feeling of wanting a guy. I can't wait for me to grow out of it, I can't wait for me and my ex to be friends again,in the mean time, we can't. I have to admit,seeing friends with significant others does make me jealous sometimes,but, I am happy for them. Having romantic nights, just walking, talking ,having chemistry...its all great experience.

This is random,but I hate Akon,Akon the hiphop singer, I think he has a distinct annoying weird voice. I really dont know how people can love him as an artist. After 5 semesters in Lim Kok Wing, I have suddenly become quite racist with africans and arabs. I think most of them are dodgy or sleazy or maybe both. LKW is like a third world country trap,on your way to class (if you're a girl) you'd realize an african guy looking at you like you just flash your boobs infront of him, they'd actually follow you around and ask for your number. The trick is, never to look at them AT ALL, ones you accidentally look at them into the eye,thats it,its either he is going to follow you all the way home/college or he'd force you to give you your number. I mean, I am flattered that you think women are in general gorgeous,but, not all of us wants you to stalk us, personally,most of us think its creepy.

What can I say about the college that I am in. I have been sitting at the plaza sometimes alone,looking at people, at times I would judge,most of the time, I would be blank,but, the people in it always intrigues me. The things people wear sometimes makes me laugh,coats, in cyberjaya,fluffy fru fru boots when its melting hot. Half a tube, flashing out boobs while there are plenty of horny bastards around (forgive my language,but,I am not telling you to read my blog,I am just writing out of my free will). I personally do not know why I dress up to college when I know its just cyberjaya, I mean, its in the middle of no where and you are going to class wearing your best to see the lecturer..hmph...after class where do you go? probably eat in streetmall? haha..and go home...so, all that dressing up is for? *blank *blank *blank I just dont get why we cant just wear a tshirt and a pair of jeans or shorts...but, people who dont care about their appearance would get less attention...because thats just how things work.

surprise birthday thank you

I would like to say thank you to my beloved parents,sister,aunty,cousins and friends for the surprise. I was REALLY surprised...honestly! Especially my mom, I know she planned this awhile ago and I know it wasnt easy because I have planned a surprise party ones too. heheh...

I can't sleep,I think Im still sick. I had a high fever right after the surprise party, I think it was more of a fatigue. I dont have a boyfriend,but, I think my mind has replaced it with this whole climbing sport. I feel like climbing atleast 3 times a week. I am still not really good at it,but, I am getting better. Plus, I dont have any crush on anyone anymore. No more liking one of the twin dude...no more liking anyone in camp5...nope..I am just totally inlove with the sport and when I am inlove with something I wont stop talking about it....I'd like to say sorry to my close friends because you've to hear me blab about climbing all the time...lalala

deleting "friends"

I seriously feel like climbing!! NOW!!! My head is filled with nonsense....plus, I don't feel like talking to anyone at all. I am avoiding my climbing friends,but, I want to go there now,alone or maybe with some friends that I already know. I was suppose to go to gua musang with them,but I had a wedding to attend,but, I think I learned the hard way that I am not suppose to be friend the climbing dudes and afew girls. Oh well, I have passion for climbing and I really want to be good at it, regardless.

part 2

I found out more about you from my sister..hehe...I saw you again afew days ago,looking as gorgeous as ever. Spectacles,long hair with squinty eyes...I could have sworn I could feel my hands turned into cold eyes. I went to the counter,you said "hey,how are you? dah makn dah?" I said "fine...belum...you dah makan?". It took him awhile to reply he stopped and looked at me with a very blur face and said "ouh..err..belum" I said "lambatnya reply". Had afew more incidents where we talked,but, again you were busy,but,not as busy as last week. I think you're brilliant with kids.

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selfish cousin

Just got back from my cousins wedding from being her "dayang" other words "minah dulang". I don't mind, I feel that I have to do something as I am her cousin and my other cousins are useless. One of them came early and wanted iron,asked the brides mother and brother for iron while they busy. Sellfish! I just realized how inconsiderate and selfish my cousins on my dad's side can be. Yeah, I saw a girl that I climbed with there, and other climber girls as the brides sister and brother climbs alot.

I was suppose to go with he selfish cousin,but she gave me a whole book of story. I was quite angry because I have done alot for her and so have my parents. It was just a lift and just on the way. I am so angry at her I felt like slapping her face when she was there,but she's my cousin.*sigh* nevermind