Since I can't sleep, I figured, I might as well type things out and write about what I have gone through these past few months in 2012. Let me recap, because as sad of a person that I am, I actually do re-read previous post to remember my emotions that can be quite a turbulence. Also, not to mention that I can be self absorbed (not like I am the only person in this world ends up being one). I think somehow I keep track of my emotions just by writing it in this blog.
Alright, back to what I have gone through this year...maybe...I have successfully finished my internship in Redberry. I was scared to bits when I started, as it was my first ever job in a proper office. They trust me enough to do the designs and I am grateful for it. The fact that the bosses (everyone who worked with me..I consider the whole office as my boss just because I am an intern..interns are always below the food chain...that is what my sister told me...so, I keep that in mind) treated me nicely and very friendly towards me that I got to know how small the media industry is. Yes, I learned to enjoy every bit of it, and I would like to think that I have strive to take whatever it is that they would like to offer me in the experience of a working environment.I have to thank my whole team for my experience too...everyone of them...I miss them dearly now.
I also, learned to look up to various types of people. Now, I understand that no one can be on top without striving. I know now that by working, you learn something new everyday and I am not just saying that. I think I have grown slightly confident of myself just by working. Three months of working two jobs without taking a break is harsh, but, I tend to avoid myself from unhealthy routines that way. Of course, there are also people that I need to be careful of while I am working, but, if negative things start to happen to me, I would learn how to deal with it...nothing goes smoothly and no work is easy.
Here are the memories that I have left of my internship also the only pictures that I have with them...ahahaha...just would like to share with people...you know...spreaad the luuurvee:
What about my love life? hehehe...well, I think now I am quite stable enough to have a relationship,but, I guess when it is the right time the right person will come. I don't hope for anything, well, that is a lie...what I hope for is that I hope that I won't be having 20 cats and 15 kittens living in my house without any spouse and die a cranky old maid...*knocks on wood* and it is not that I haven't tried either...I have gotten myself exes before, but, somehow, it didn't work...maybe because I was immature at that time...VERY immature..made the same mistakes over again...and now, I am just tired of those mistakes...I don't wish to regret what I have done because if I didn't do the mistakes...I would never learn. Could say that I have become a tough b***h when it comes to love,but, to repeat it would be foolish, so, I'd rather avoid it (not avoid love...just the whole mistake situation thing...i want love...its all butterflies and adrenaline and stuff)...recently (not quite recently but, this year) I told a friend that I had feelings for him...and his reply "I don't know how to respond to that"...hehe...until now, I didn't get any responds...I'd like to think that he likes being as slow as a slug when it comes to replying a girls feelings...I ended up thinking that he is not worth my thought...so, up till now, I haven't been seeing or contacting him...but, I do like someone else now...a very nice...good looking person that I admire...if I were to type about him, it'd take a lot of time and a longer post to write. I am not quite sure if he knows he is good looking,but, if he does, he is calm about it. Well, that is all...I feel like I am in high school again...I remember this feeling...the chirpy and nervousness of liking someone...never had this feeling in years...the last time i had this feeling was when I first met my ex in high school...whatever it is...wish me luck :D
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